“Karen?” I lifted
my head and focused my eyes on the man standing in front of me. The chair I was
in was most uncomfortable, I have no idea how I
managed to fall asleep. “Yes, still
here. Where are we in this mess?”
"Well it’s getting late. We’ve had an emergency, why don’t you take
your daughter home and she can come in tomorrow morning.” Instantly, I was wide awake. “You have got to be joking. There is no way I’m taking her home. I’ve been waiting for 4
hours. I can’t take her home like this,
we will wait if we have too.”
He looked
at me and smiled, “Okay, I’ll tell them.
Hold on.” With that, he turned,
patted my daughter’s good foot and said, “Hang on there Tiger.”
My nine year old turned to me and exclaimed, “Did he want
me to go home without fixing me?” Amazement
was written across her pale face. “Noooo
way. That would be horrible. I can’t
sleep, it feels so awful.” Her eyes
filled with tears and threatened to spill over. “It’s okay bunny,” I assured
her. “We aren’t leaving. We will get this taken care of, don’t worry.” I sat in surprised silence. ‘Go home?
With half a needle in her foot?
Are they out of their minds, like I’m going to drive home again, put her
to bed only to have her melt down when the discomfort hits…….' I realized I was
wringing my hands as my self-talk walked me down paths of unrighteous
dread. I sighed and started
praying.
That’s not entirely true.
First, I texted my husband and blessed him with a caustic analysis of
the doctor’s state of mind. “This doctor
is insane. He actually suggested I take
her home because they are busy. I think
he might be one of those guys who is so overwhelmed he takes drugs. Maybe he’s been awake for three days
straight. I expect he doesn’t have
children yet…” My hubby reassured me the
physician in question was not a drug addict and was trying to lessen my wait
time. I preferred to viciously attack
the doctor’s outlandish suggestion because I was feeling cross and wanted to
take it out on someone.
That’s actually when I started praying.
The last few hours had been horrible and I couldn’t
believe anyone would suggest we return home without getting the blasted needle
out of my child’s foot. It happened so
suddenly. I looked at the copy of the x-ray on my lap. Uncanny really. How she had managed to skiff her foot across
the floor with enough force to cause the needle to enter it was
mysterious. That she snapped the end off
when she stepped down, causing the internal piece to disappear under her skin,
was frightening. Big sister found what
was left of the offending metal in the carpet, husband gave me a meaningful
look and we were off to the emergency room.
Four hours later, a nice doctor was suggesting I take my
child home. I wondered what he was
thinking. What would possess anyone to
hang on to something that painful when it could be removed? Every time she moved her toes, the metal
slipped deeper into her foot. It was
uncomfortable, unpleasant and unbearable.
“Karen?”
“Still
here, hello.” I turned and smiled. “Any news?”
“You bet. I’ve pulled together a team.
We’ve had a busy night, but I’ve grabbed some nurses. We’ll start surgery in about 15 minutes, okay?”
An hour and a half later I was piggy backing my little up
the stairs to our flat. The clock read 2:00 am as I
helped her put on jammies and boosted her into bed. Ducking into my bedroom, I told my man all
was well. I brushed my teeth, grabbed a
blanket and returned to the living room.
I needed a moment to think before I slept. I thanked the Lord for medical care, for those who minister in hospitals and for little girls before I drifted off.
Months later, I’m still amazed the doctor tried to send us home
without treatment. He was minimizing the need to get rid of the needle. As if my daughter would be fine to return home, despite the fact she was unable to walk or move without pain. It got me to thinking about how I sometimes I ignore my sinful behavior and am content to let sin continue unchecked. Like the doctor, I pretend the offending object can stay put, until a more convenient time to remove it. It is human nature to pretend our sinful behaviors don't exist. We accuse others of materialism but don't pay our tithes. We watch filthy shows online even though we know such viewing is unacceptable. We ignore our own misbehavior. It is good to remember that the Lord isn't fooled by our willful blindness.
Little
children, let no one deceive you. Whoever practices righteousness is righteous,
as he is righteous. Whoever makes a practice of sinning is of the devil, for
the devil has been sinning from the beginning. The reason the Son of God
appeared was to destroy the works of the devil. No one born of God makes a
practice of sinning, for God's[b] seed abides in him, and he cannot keep on
sinning because he has been born of God. By
this it is evident who are the children of God, and who are the children of the
devil: whoever does not practice righteousness is not of God, nor is the one
who does not love his brother. 1 John 3:7-10
When I consider scripture, God is able to convict me of
behaviors and attitudes that must cease.
What about you dear friend? Do
you have anything outrageously misplaced in your world? Anything lodged in your life that is making
it hard to walk with the Lord? An
unclean allegiance, a destructive habit or shameful secret can do a lot of
damage if left to fester. I have found
over and over again, that if we are honest and spend time in the discipline of
prayer, God will condescend to help us in our weakness. He alone can remove our offense and pain in
order to get us walking alongside him again.
I pray that on this Father’s day, you might know the
goodness of God and find the healing you seek.
I’m praying for you,
xoxKaren
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